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Today post will be dedicated to Azad sir. Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Rajioon He was not just a teacher; but was a believer in me, and know about my potential more than myself. When I got 5 A* in o level; Everyone,except Azad, sir were surprised about it. But he were not surprised about it; in fact  he knew  it. He was like "I knew you would get it. It is no surprised at all"  The fact that he believed in me was one of driving motivation to score a top grade in O level. My only regret is that I disappointed him for my A level grade. When I first heard my A level grades, first thing that came to my mind “How I will face sir?” He really was looking forward to my A in math;but I did not get that. From that moment I avoided him fearing the disappointment look from him; which now I am regretting. Instead of avoiding I should have tell him How much I appreciated his faith in me; and how much that faith mean to me. If it were not for that I wou...

Lately I have been having hard time dealing with various things; with academic life. identity crisis, future, and people around me. Regarding academic part, the last semester was my worst one; with bad grades in every course and a pending final exam that I will have to appear in next semester and that too I might have to retake that course anyways. It was not easy decision for me to decide not to appear final exam of one of my course. At the time of my decision, a thought pretty much knocked me so hard; which is the realization that I am not the same person from 6 years back; a person who would do anything for her academic life; and who would make sure that she never failed to be prepared for every exam. I was pretty much devastated. Because I am already having identity crisis, and now this is adding to the pile. It felt like I am totally two different person; one who used to be so focus in studies and another is not so focus. I am not sure how to handle this one ; but a friend to...

I am  hijabi, but it does not mean I am  always quiet and shy person. I am hijabi, but I laugh loud and clear.  I am hijabi, sole reason is to follow on Allah command. Not because of men or anyone told me so.  I am hijabi, but it does not mean I know each and every teaching of Allah. I am still learning in progress. So,dont be surprise when I dont know an answer to islamic question or stare me in horror when I do something wrong.  I am hijabi, but dont ask me what Allah is thinking or what does Allah think of this or that. I am not sheikh and nobody could tell what Allah is thinking right now.   I am hijabi , but it does not mean I dont get to make mistake. Like any other muslim, I am flawed one and I do make mistake. I am hijabi,it does not mean I cannot put on makeup. Like most girls, I LOVE putting on makeup. I am hijabi, but dont compare me with non-hijabi girl. Recently, a relative commented me that how pretty I looked at a party compari...

When I was just in school age,I used to play this game with my neighbor friends and we called it " College,college"(lame game title, I know). And it was fun because we were  creating a short wishful version of our university.Funny how back in those time we wanted to grow up quickly. The game was just kind of making up scenario and playing a part in that We were walking like a proper lady would, carrying bunch of universities books. My friend part was, that she get bumped into a handsome guy, and thus her book would  fall down and both reach to pick up the fallen books and while doing so, they share a *first love*  eye lock. :P My scenario was----, I was standing on automatic rolling carrier( just like in that cartoon, The Jetsons, where the main man was going to office by those carrier thing), and the path was from dorm to big  university campus. I was heading to this imaginary amazing big library where I borrow all those huge books and flash those "made up" m...

It is cute,right? Yeah, that why it was hard to eat them,but was really delicious; cuteness did help that deliciousness. Haha. I was reminiscing to my sister about ginger biscuit. My dad used to buy box of ginger biscuits. Everyone in my family dislike it. Lucky for me, I loved them. But the last time I had that was during class one or two. All the time I did not know the flavor was ginger; I though it was just cookies. It was recent that I realized it was actually ginger biscuit.  But my sister thought I meant gingerbread, hehe. But I did not correct her because it was so sweet of her to search for it and bought one for me. ^_^  This act of her really made me smile. :)  Come to think of it, it is  first time I have eaten a gingerbread!! Having it remind me of all those cartoon where the "mother" character baked whole bunch of gingerbread and bring them out of oven; and that gingerbread trying to escape from human children monster. On...

Stress. It can bring out a lot of things from you. Even the hidden part of you. As for me, it switch on   "shopaholic" mode. Look at below to see what I have done. Lately I have been dealing with lot of pressure as a student; and guilt of not doing good enough in midterm and final. Next year is already catching up and I am now where in position of achievement. And it frustrating to feel that way. Hopefully along the way, I get to suck it up and stop having those thinking, which will only  pull me down. *SIGH* Anyways, my shopaholic products!! From Foring store. And I know there is iron beside this. LOL! From Laamia store. I LOVE the design. Though my sister call this dress a "sailor" dress. :S Ring!!<3 Wanted to have this for a long time!! Ah! My favourite part of being shopaholic!! I get to buy a set of this ornaments!! Hijabi Pin!!! Floral in velvet from "Veiled Glamour" !! But as the whole fair, it was disappionting...

Whenever I meet new people or visit to relatives the most common questions asked  are "How do you like Bangladesh? Which country you prefer to live---Saudi Arabia or Bangladesh? Do you miss the place where you grew up? It never end My answer would always be "Both" or " Food is great in saudi" (this part is true though) or "It is hot in Bangladesh! No AC!!" As few years passes by(it has been over two years!!  it is astonishing how time flies~~) I had time to think about it. Then I realized my answers above was only because I did not knew the answer myself and said it what other people did. Basically those answer were repeated by people before me so I said the same. Now that I lived here I got my thought on living away from the place bit arranged; but it is not clear to me yet. I came to Saudi Arabia when I was around four years old;it was on the year 1995 I think.I don't exactly remember the moment I step on the place; but I remember vaguely...