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Suzie and Nora: Urghh!!! Suzie: Me first! Today I was watching a new video uploaded by Rikki Poynter. My sister was watching with me. It is her first time watching her video. Before Rikki even finished her line, she said"she have a problem." Seriously? I told her millions of time about her. Yet she said it like that! I wanted to scream at her "So you think having deaf accent is a problem? You mean to say I have a problem?" Nora: Not again! She is still doing that! Suzie: I know, right? I still remember that awful argument we had few years back! I was complaining how my parents was not listening to me about something and she said  to straight to my face "But you should be grateful! You cannot be keep complaining all the time! You should be grateful that your parents at least was able to pay for pair of hearing aids! You do know how lot of deaf people cannot have that? They cannot pay for it! You would not be today if it were not for those!"  My comp

I don't know what it is with people around me, they seem to be either afraid of talking with me or avoid me altogether.  It is not with stranger only;but also with families including relatives, parents etc.. Since I was kid, people has been doing this to me making me feel kinda alien. At some point, I was relating with alien in the movie more than human, *chuckle*.(And the alien are villain in the movie(  -_-). But I am starting to understand it bit why people behave with me like that. I think it is that  I am deaf, people get lost on how communicate with me despite seeing me talking with my friends numerous time. It is like, even If I am talking with people,  they turn for my deaf accent, I think. Which is sad, because people in this world seem to be judging intelligence of one's based on accent. One of most popular example is how some people in Asian countries seem to laugh at their English accent. English is English,period!!! I realized it first time at when i was grad

These few  years are on roll for the deaf people. More and more people are telling their stories and showing their talents. Which I like. One for instant, Nyle Dimarco is running for American Top Model. While modelling is not my forte, but there is no reason not to support his desire to win the competition. As a fellow deaf person, I am cheering and supporting him with all my heart. Go #DeafTalent!! People in this world are not giving enough chance to deaf people to show their talent. More their often they are stuck with their prejudice about us. Which is really unfortunate, because they are missing out the wonderful people out there and the rich culture we have. That is why from this post onward I will post more about deaf related issues and topics. Signing off here, fellows!!

There is this notion around here that makeup is considered to be....for lazy person. And that it does not suit well with engineering student. There was a girl who wore bright colour lipstick and and has some real good eye makeup on university and people around me commented this " she is must not be a good student. She just waste her time on her face". Often  engineered girl/boys student with fashion sense get judged based on it; that is they are deem to be unfit to be engineered student. It is kinda sad how some people put other people into box;  I myself have been put into many, many box. Those box are called label. what is wrong with putting up makeup? Really, what is the deal? Another thing I noticed that in here, anything that associated with lady/girl is taken as......foolish. Girl in engineered section is expected to follow what other man do; because according to some people engineering is a "guy" thing. And since guys don't really use much makeup, g

It was independence day and I went out with my family outside for experiencing the day. For some reason my dad thought I don't know much about it which had an bad result  that I will be going to talk about later. I was not really excited about going out there. I had a bad day before and I was unwillingly to go out. I really respect independence day  but it was about my certain things that were happening around me that made me really unenthusiastic about it.  So we walked around a place which has this array of pictures of freedom fighters; and that kind of picture which show the brutal form of them. Which I mean,  the pictures of them being treated badly and tortured. That made me more.......troubled as ever. I was already troubled with my personal issue and after seeing the pictures it made me feel worse. I was like "Here I was lamenting about my life and these people had it worse. I should stop sulking". So I tried to be bit more, you know, involved with the day. Li

Dear to my Younger self; 1) You are doing great on your studies. Mashallah, you did great job on getting 5 A* on your O level. I am so proud of you. You did it!!  2) Don't Over study. You are right now, trying too hard to keep your parents happy. Please think about yourself too. Explore other area. Studies is not only thing that will define your future. Skill and talent is. 3) Learn Sign language as soon as possible. It is not weird thing and will definitely help you in future. 4)Don't try to prove to other people including your family that deafness is not interfering your life. They simply won't care.  5) Stop trying being like a hearing people. It is okay to be deaf.  It is okay not be able to understand songs,music, and group conversation. 6) Don't ask your mother and your siblings  about what they think about other deafness. They will make such a statement that will haunt you forever.  7)Talk with father more. Unlike others,he is most willingly to hea