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Today post will be dedicated to Azad sir. Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Rajioon He was not just a teacher; but was a believer in me, and know about my potential more than myself. When I got 5 A* in o level; Everyone,except Azad, sir were surprised about it. But he were not surprised about it; in fact  he knew  it. He was like "I knew you would get it. It is no surprised at all"  The fact that he believed in me was one of driving motivation to score a top grade in O level. My only regret is that I disappointed him for my A level grade. When I first heard my A level grades, first thing that came to my mind “How I will face sir?” He really was looking forward to my A in math;but I did not get that. From that moment I avoided him fearing the disappointment look from him; which now I am regretting. Instead of avoiding I should have tell him How much I appreciated his faith in me; and how much that faith mean to me. If it were not for that I would have  almost given up

Lately I have been having hard time dealing with various things; with academic life. identity crisis, future, and people around me. Regarding academic part, the last semester was my worst one; with bad grades in every course and a pending final exam that I will have to appear in next semester and that too I might have to retake that course anyways. It was not easy decision for me to decide not to appear final exam of one of my course. At the time of my decision, a thought pretty much knocked me so hard; which is the realization that I am not the same person from 6 years back; a person who would do anything for her academic life; and who would make sure that she never failed to be prepared for every exam. I was pretty much devastated. Because I am already having identity crisis, and now this is adding to the pile. It felt like I am totally two different person; one who used to be so focus in studies and another is not so focus. I am not sure how to handle this one ; but a friend to

I am  hijabi, but it does not mean I am  always quiet and shy person. I am hijabi, but I laugh loud and clear.  I am hijabi, sole reason is to follow on Allah command. Not because of men or anyone told me so.  I am hijabi, but it does not mean I know each and every teaching of Allah. I am still learning in progress. So,dont be surprise when I dont know an answer to islamic question or stare me in horror when I do something wrong.  I am hijabi, but dont ask me what Allah is thinking or what does Allah think of this or that. I am not sheikh and nobody could tell what Allah is thinking right now.   I am hijabi , but it does not mean I dont get to make mistake. Like any other muslim, I am flawed one and I do make mistake. I am hijabi,it does not mean I cannot put on makeup. Like most girls, I LOVE putting on makeup. I am hijabi, but dont compare me with non-hijabi girl. Recently, a relative commented me that how pretty I looked at a party comparing me to a cousin who did not